Saturday, July 12, 2014

Growing pains

Let me just start off by saying that I am not a fan of how fast times goes by.  I feel as though it was yesterday that I was 10 years old and my first niece was just born!  And now she is going to be 17?  What?!  That's just CRAZY!

So, here I am, not 10 anymore and 17 years have gone by in a blink of an eye.  I now have 5 nieces and 1 nephew and some of their cousins I seem to have adopted because they too call me Tia Lily.  If you don't know what Tia means it means Aunt in spanish (fact: I'm fluent in spanish).  Okay so the oldest niece Susana is turning 17 in September, Erin is turning 16 this month July 26th (ahh she can drive!), Isabel is officially a teenager at the rightful age of 13, Sofia is a decade old and my nephew Nicolas is a decade old too.  Sofia's birthday is in February and Nicolas' birthday is in November.  Then there is the youngest (also a cutie) Karina, she is 5 years old and so spunky.  That's all of them.  I have 1 sister and 2 brothers.  My sister has on daughter that the going to be 16, my oldest brother has 3 girls and they are the 13, 10, and 5 year old.  My second oldest brother has 2 kids, 1 girl and 1 boy, the soon to be 17 and the 10 year old.

They grow up so quickly!  I really wish I could just pause time at any given moment so I could just bask in that particular moment because they do not last long enough.  Soon the oldest will be graduating high school during my 10 year high school reunion (just in case you wanted to know that) and she will be venturing out into this scary world full of awful things.  It  is so scary to me because once I was out of high school I saw what some people became and I just don't want her to have to go through struggles.  I personally never really did anything bad but thats because I'm different then typical people.  I have never liked following crowds and doing what everyone perceived as cool, I typically perceived it as stupid.  It could be because my siblings are 12 to 16 years older then me so I kind of grew up quickly.  I don't know it is just scary to realize that one day (sooner then I would like) these kids that I love dearly like my own will be adults and making their own decisions.  Ahhhh!  I guess all I can really do is try to continue to teach them the importance of making good thought out decisions and teach them to let God lead them, teach them how to trust in the Lord as best as I can.  I pray that it sticks in their selective hearing brains.  These kids growing up is my growing pain.

You know what though?  I'm a little excited to see how their adult self will be (ok, and a little scared too).

Do you have any growing pains?

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Friday, July 11, 2014

To be Honest

I was having trouble deciding what today's post should be about.  So asked a new friend if she had a suggestion and she suggested an Honesty post.  Thank you!
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So...  here it goes.  To be honest

//I can't stand it when people in a movie theater talk during the movie.  If its the trailers ok, I may be ok with it but if it is during the actual movie.  That is a major NO, NO, NO!  Keep it in your head and spill it, later please and thank you.

//I'm addicted to (I don't want to admit it) Dice with Buddies.  It's like Yahtzee!

//I always have a smile on my face even when I feel like I'm dying inside be it because I feel bad due to my kidneys or because I'm having a bad day.

//I let my sister get the best of me and it really annoys me.  She has this way of being able to make me feel terrible with very little words since I was a little girl.  She is 12 years older then me, however,  when it comes to maturity, it is as if it were to be the other way around.

//I dislike conflict with a passion but in my head I am very good at it, just not outside my head.

//I like my nails to be polished at all times and when they are not my fingers feel naked.

//While we are on the subject of nail polish, I must share that I own a total of 84 nail polish colors and the collection is growing.  Ahhh, think I might be a little obsessed?  No, right?

//I like to dance in my room and lip sync.  I think I'm quite good at it.  Hahaha...

//I dislike negativity and embrase positivity with open arms.

//I don't like one of my sister-in-laws because she's a crazy___________ you can fill in the blank.

//I ran out of things... but I will back be with more on a later post.

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Thursday, July 10, 2014


This past sunday at church the pastor was talking about conflict and how we need to sort out whatever conflict we have with a person so that we can better witness not only to them but others.  That really got me thinking about the conflict in my life and how I have dealt with it.  He shared a verse that I had not heard in awhile Proverbs 3:3-4 "Never let loyalty and kindness leave you!  Tie them around your neck as a reminder.  Write them deep within your heart.  Then you will find favor with both God and people, and you will earn a good reputation" NLT 
NLT Version

NIV Version

That got me to thinking, there are many times when people just piss me off (to be honest) and I react in a not so kind manner.  Don't get me wrong I'm not a cursing people out or even a yeller for that matter but I do tend to cut people off and kind of pretend like they don't exist instead of dealing with the conflict head on.  I wish I could, but to be honest with you the people I typically have conflict with are those that do not listen to reason or logic and trying to sort out conflict with them would be like talking to a wall meaning you get nothing resolved.  (maybe I'm underestimating them? Or, not)  So, I thought to myself "Self, do you ever let loyalty or kindness leave you?" and I came to the conclusion that kindness does leave me quite often because if I'm ignoring the presence of someone, that's not very kind, right?  As for loyalty, I am a pretty loyal person.  My loyalty remains even if I am mad at a family member or friend.

One thing for sure is that I want to be a better witness not only to my family and friends but to everyone I come in contact with.  I have not been doing a good enough job and I understand why the pastor challenged us to get rid of the conflict we have in our lives.  It really does bring us down and puts in a a dark spot even if the spot is tiny that lingers with us and maybe we don't realize that we show that dark spot a little sometimes.

My goal is to try to be more kind to my adversaries and to TRULY love thy enemy (that can be very hard).  So that I may show them God's love and hopefully be a light in their life which will help lead them to christ.  I struggle daily with loving certain people that I will keep nameless at the moment.  They have just been such negative people in my life that it's hard to continue to allow them to be apart of it but I'm going to try to be kind and not too critical or pretend like they don't exist.

In thinking about my goal the verse 1John 4:20 popped into my head because it is a true verse.  As a Christian woman who has accepted Jesus in my heart and has declared publicly to follow him and to share his word, it is my privilege/duty to share God's love with all that I come in contact with, for if I don't then I AM A LIAR and the truth is not within me.  I really believe that and I know it is hard sometimes to swallow our faults but it is very necessary to understand them and try to rectify them.  So that we can be the best witness we can be.
MSG Version

NLT Version

What are some of the things you struggle with?  Whether it relates to your walk with Christ or anything else.

Thank you,

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Back for good

So... I finally got a computer, a MacBook to be exact. I haven't had a Mac since my iMac in 1997 (or 98, don't really remember). I have been playing around with it and getting adjusted to the shortcuts, which they are not too different from a Windows processor. Life has been pretty good I can't complain.

My labs have been coming out pretty good according to my Dialysis peeps. The only problem for a couple days was my potassium being a little high but I managed to get it under control. When my potassium get high I smell this weird metal smell and my body feels really heavy and tingly. It's not fun but luckily there is medicine to bring it down. I just don't understand sometimes why it gets high. I try my very best no to ingest foods that are high in potassium but it seems that even looking at fruit my mind tricks my body and it is as if I ate the dang fruit I was drooling over.

Recently however, my EVIL Aunt Flo (continues to be a big pain) has been visiting me for a couple days and has me stuck on my couch watching too much television. Yesterday I watched this new show that I found to be pretty interesting on ABC Family it's called Chasing Life and it is about this young lady who finds out she has Lukemia at a time in her life where everything seems to be going right. I can relate to that because my life came crashing down at a time I could only see it go up. I'm excited to keep up with this series and see how the story unfolds.

On other news the back windshield in my car was shattered.  WHY? I have no idea.  My car was outside my brothers house and when I went out to get something I saw the windshield broken.  It is so annoying that people do this.  I just don't understand why someone would take the time to just brake someones window.  I have a feeling I know who it is and it makes me even more angry but it's ok its just a window and one day they will have to answer for their behavior I just pray they stop acting so childish.

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